Beyond the utmost bound of human thought.

so Kenn says me today:

"my grandfather punched William Shatner in the head"

I liked it even more because it was true.

I have to brag about my mother abit...
World Masters Games was this last weekend...
she won 3 medals and nice writeup in the paper...
for someone that couldnt stop talking about
how she wasnt it shape...
I think its pretty damn cool that there is only
one person in the world her age that can swim the 800m faster.

I was joking about the shaving thing...
not about the actual shaving part...
but about the thinking that you might not love me anymore...
I would hope so...
during our 50+ years together Im bound to lose some!
I just thought it was hilarious that my mom would say so...
sometimes she says such un-mom things.
you get used to it.

I had seriously considered
not sending you the e-mail I sent out.
I wrote it very quickly
(I put "your" instead of "you're again)
and there were somethings in it that
I would have rather you not read.

specifically the end, which implied
that a good number of my friends
didnt approve of me coming to see you...
my friends love you faith...
because they've met you...
or because they've seen how much I love you...

is it 9 days now?
when I start to think about all
the time we're going to have to
spend away from one another
over the next few years...
sigh.
I try not to think about it...
to think instead...
about how wonderful the rest
of this year will be.
Even just to be able to call you
when I want to!

I have to be up early...
so I should get to dreaming.
Ill write about tomorrow.

j

prague 

berlin 

track 4

faith,

my mother has informed me
that I should let you know that I have
shaved my head,
and then ask if you still love me.

its true, and I cant even tell you
why I did it...I suppose I have reasons...
most of which were good...

I have to say that I am a relatively
good-looking bald man...
but Ill let it grow out again...
especially because my mother informs
me that you may not love me because of it.

I wanted to write you this long narrative
about this past weekend...
but really...now it doesnt seem that interesting...
in short.
I spent the night in Banff.
Went to the Banff Springs...
remember that women that was playing
Jazz the night we were there together?
She was there, and I wandered the same route
that we did with my cohorts...
odd to think about how much has changed since
that night.

We broke into some places and slept on the roof.
Good times.

Its strange to be relied on...
odd to have people that depend on you...
frightening really...
I don't generally feel up to it...

really though, I cant wait to be back there.

I also had alot of things that I wanted to mention
politics wise...but Im much rather talk to you about
them in person...let me just say...

that I believe there was a reasons for Afghanistan...
both from a military strategic standpoint,
and from an economic standpoint.
Conspiricy theorists (who are sometimes right)
will talk about an american old company called Unocal
that had been seeking to build a pipeline through
the Afghan countryside for years, from the rich Turkmenistan
oil fields to the Pakistani Border....
the taliban was having none of it...
but it was approved soon after Karzai goverment took power...
and a former consultant for Unocal was named
the US special envoy.

I say this though really because I think its interesting...
I think you know that I agree with both wars faith...
for much different reasons than your friend...
the hard fact is that in this world (and maybe others)
for any large events to happen there generally have
to be several (sometimes conflicting) motives behind it.
Good Men must work with Bad Men.
Idealists must work with Criminals.
Its the nature of the system...and it means that most
international actions are round compromises.

There is no doubt in my mind though that the US
is seeking to gather as much influence as it can...
that they are seeking to extend the horizon of their empire...
in space, and therefore...time

(as a side note, there is a very interesting article in this months Harper's
about the American misinterpretation of Christs message...that the
majority of them believe that the bible teaches
"G-d helps those who help themselves")

As for the structure of the Canadian Government...
its abit complicated.
the Queen is our head of State...
she techinically appoints our prime minister
on the advice of the prime minister she appoints
the governor general who acts as her representative.
We do not have true representational goverment...
and one of the bodies of our parliament (the senate)
is composed of appointed officials.
and our MPs are elected in a system similar to
the electoral college to the south.
The house of commons and the senate act very much
like house of representatives and the senate in the U.S.
Our constituition gives the Prime Minister much more
potential power than the president.

Im not really sure what you were asking.
But is this close? I can go into more detail if you like.

I really hadnt thought about what we would do when you arrived.
I have a very large group of people that would like to meet you...
but I think that we can save most of them...if not all of them...for another time.
I think it might be best for you if we went to saskatoon that night.
It would be nice for you to sleep in your own bed...
and I know you have
things to do.
Are you sure its wise
that I come home with you? ;)

I miss you faith.
I'm so looking forward to
the time we'll get to spend together.
(you know...if you can get over the hair thing)

I love you

trepidation of the spheres

this is a place-holder e-mail...
which I apoligize for...
but again
Im just so tired faith...
kats alarm went off at 4.20
and I never really went to sleep
after that...

I have a few of the pictures I took
back now...Ill post them tomorrow...
they made me miss you even more
Ill admit (just so you feel less crazy)
that I almost cried right in the middle
of the store. (or...maybe we're both crazy)

love you so much.

is shakespeare dead?

faith!

yes, Im alright...
I was just terribly tired last night
and had such an awful lot I wanted to
write to you...
that it seemed best just to leave it
until I was abit more awake...

the bulk of it would have been the
description of my weekend...
followed up by abit of politics...

Im afraid I will again have to leave it
until later...
but I wanted to let you know that I was
alright...good even...
excepting how much I miss you...

hopefully, by tonight, I will have
more photos to show you...
from calgary and my visit
to see a lovely girl in germany.

I love you faith.
I wish you were with me now.

...

oki...
I missed my bus...
ended up spending another day here...
I should get in about 6am I think...
then work...
then sleep...

here is one of the many pictures we took.
more later.
I love you.
I think our first child should be born in China...
just in case they take over.

you set me free

well,
my plan was to
come home today and
write out a short account
of everything that happened
this weekend...
it was story worthy,
even by lofty reckoning...

but instead I was pulled out
for late night shisha with friends
(I like Israelis)
and then
later night chinese with 2
charming gentleman to have
a conservation about the matter
of life and death...

Jeremy is writing is story about
a boy about his age and his height...
realizing suddenly that crossing the Darien
Gap was the answer to his nights of sleeplessness...
in the jungle he would find truth...
or he would die...and hopefully...find truth

its a good premise I think...
except that it sounded tonight like he means
to do so...
it took me much to long to realize that when
he speaks of "going into the jungle"
what he means is "commit suicide"

I will save him.
Hopefully I can do it from here.

I will write more tomorrow...
probably before you've read this...
but just in case.

I love you faith
I feel like this isnt my real life at all...
that I should be back in Berlin with you.
It makes me sad to think of how long it
will be until we could live together...
maybe we should get apartments right next to
one another, and just take turns having sleepovers?



Im sorry that I make you teary sometimes...
Ill make it up to you...
we took alot of photos in banff that are bound
to make you miss me less...
some of them will be posted within 48hrs.

Im so very tired...
I wish I was with you...
Id settle for just 10 minutes...
just to help me get to sleep...

I miss you so much.