leaving too late

well, Im on my way...ish
Ill be out for thai food soon enough though.

Im all smiles babe.
Thanks

the weapon of choice

went out for late night ice-cream...
I dont even like icecream!
Oh dear. I miss you.

500 more miles.

Im headed off to calgary tomorrow...
it will be good to be back,
I have alot of people waiting for me...

I hope you had a wonderful weekend in Berlin.
are you taking lots of pictures?

I was supposed to go out tonight to the bar all my new
friends work at....but I didnt really want to.
I hope your oki with being abit of a homebody sometimes...
Its nice to go out, but sometimes its nice to stay home too...
just grab a book to read, and write the girl I miss way too much.

There are several odd things about working at the store...
Im not entirely comfortable with well-dressed people asking
me for fashion advice. Its not something I really know about.
(you'll always be the well dressed one)
I did pick out some new glasses for myself though...
Ill send a picture when they come in.
(you have veto power)

oh! I wish I could call you right now!
hopefully Ill get to talk to you soon.

song of the night is clearly White Hot by Red Rider

I will write you tomorrow if I can.
But...I suppose you already know that.

Goodnight Babe.

working in a coal mine

well, not really...
but I still wish I didnt have to go.

missing in action

people dont age in memory...
or, at least not in mine.
they stay nine, or seventeen
and wear big glasses or pink spandex
I remember in highschool
thinking to myself...
I wonder what this, or that person
will turn out like...
and then, there they are buying
corn pops in wal-mart.

sometimes it was a specific question
like...
will they're heads always be that big?
the answer...in this case...was huge.

I went to see my grandparents tonight...
for 2.5 hours.
I told them all about you...
they want to meet you.
That should worry you.
(Im just kidding)

It seems that I am going to Calgary...
and that Bj is coming down...
should be fun times in the city.
I really do like it there...
You could make me move...
but I hope you dont.
Wait...maybe I do.
But it should be someplace fancy.

I love you Faith.
damn that feels good to say
oh, I hope you call me this weekend.
I know you wont want to bother me...
and thats fine
but I want you to bother me.

song of the night is clearly
futures by Jimmy Eat World

gangsters need love too

a day has passed.
but you know what?
I have absolutely nothing to write about...

Im joking of course...
I did worry abit one day that
over the course of 3 months I would
run out of things to write about...
(outside of the obligitory "I miss you"s)
abit irrational maybe...considering I havent
stopped talking since I started 23 years ago.

I have no idea whats going
on with my fathers project
I received an e-mail from them
yesterday saying they had returned
from the Ukraine...and that everything
was great.

Im not sure what that means.

There is this man thats been coming into the
store...old, very tall, distinguished.
He came in one day last week...
and fairly randomly informed my co-workers
that one needed a license for
everything these days "except spears"

I dont know what he meant by this...
but it seemed fairly obvious to Kenn
that Tony (his name) was actually
a retired gangster called "Tony the Spear"

We spent a great deal of time talking today,
and it turns out that Kenn was wrong...

it seems to me that as extraordinary people
progress through life, tiny bits of their adventures
stick to them...on some the layer becomes so thick
you can see it...

Ill talk about Tony more later...
the point is that Ive decided to become his friend
he has too much information Id like to know.

.....

the most important thing that happened today
was that I finally heard from Nivine.

Thank G-d.

I worry about her...I think I always will.
That night is the thing I hold onto when I am truly doubting G-d.
He has never shouted at me so loudly.
I feel this incredible responsibility for her well-being...
I cant really explain it...

I always worry that she will have forgotten me.
but apparently she misses me, and thinks about me often.
I love the idea of being able to visit her years from now when
shes married with 12 kids (shes catholic).
I pray to G-d that I will get to.

thats about it for tonight
I have the day off tomorrow--
which is good-ish.
I didnt know I didnt have to work
so I dont have anything planned...
I should write you something...
(read: a story of some kind)
Im sorry Im such a coward...
its one of several things I intend to change.
(also, I am much too witty)

I still thought alot about you today...
but it was different somehow...
easier, better.
thanks babe.

song of the night is clearly
"worlds apart" by Mathew Jay

cant keep me mind off of you

faith,
you are a crazy girl...
waking up so early to call
a silly boy that lives 7000 miles away.

thank God
I know that I've done nothing
to deserve you...

your on a train right now I think...
speeding in exactly the wrong direction

I couldnt have guessed how much impact
hearing you say you loved me would have.
Im so much yours babe.

there is no song I know of that could be suitable
tonight...
Ill just hum to myself, and think of you.

high fidelity

your probably up now.
again, Im tempted to call...
just to tell you that I miss you,
that I hope your midterm goes well...

Im sure that it will.
I don't want to bother you--
just know that I was thinking about you.

I think your week sounds
terribly interesting...
I hope the whole thing is stellar.
Try and take notes,
I expect you to show me around
there sometime.

I have this whole thing about Neil and brotherhood
and learning that true power means not having
to express it...blah blah blah.
Ill write about it soon.

I think Im headed out for Breakfast.

I wrote a song about you
a light jazz tune called

"77 days till my baby comes back"

its a work in progress.

We had rhubarb pie with dinner tonight...
crispy crust...good

oh, and by the way...
I love you.

as far as I can

Faith,

the sisters are going to need the
computer tonight...
kat saved a 10pg. paper for the last night...
(it may be genetic)

so I thought I would write abit now,
then go and write abit,
and then write abit more late tonight.

for all your talk of uneloquence babe,
you seem to have no problem writing
e-mails that can awe me.

I understood you before when you
spoke about how it was hard to reply
to such things...but I couldnt relate
until this morning

I should let you know though,
that when I tried explain what I thought
of you to Kate (one of rachets friends) tonight
she started to cry and ran away.
(but in a good way...I think)
now shes playing sad songs on the piano...


it was the same thing this weekend
(which Im not doing to talk much about)
all of these people so devoted to one night stands
could mock me until I started to talk about you...

it seems silly, that drunken peoples
have heard more about how I think about you then
you have.

Ill try and change that soon.

...

well, I've re-read that e-mail about 9 times now.
I woke up early this morning...read it...
then went back to sleep.
When I woke up again, I had to go read it again
just to make sure I had not dreamt it the first time.

Ive been sitting here for about 20 minutes...
it seems Im at a loss for words.

...

wow.

who needs shelter

oh faith,

I guess I was tired last night...
I fully intended to get up after
I talked to you...but I fell asleep...
right there.

I dreamt I was in Germany with you,
running across roof-tops.

Its a beautiful day...
and I guess Im still headed out.
Im sure it will be great blah blah...
but really, Id rather be sitting on
my couch...talking to you.


I should go...

there has been some talk about the Darien
lately. I wont say much else about it...
except that...you make me not want to leave.
I mean this generally--
from our phonecalls, from these silly messages I write,
let alone from the country you'll soon be back to.

thats right.
soon.
the time has been decreasing in more ways then one
...the days are going by (though too slowly at times)
but my perception of the time has changed as well..
as you make me more certain that our lives
together will be lengthy...the ratio of time I have to
spend away from you decreases.

alright.
I go.

your my favourite star

yes, I know that I talked to you today...
and yes, I know that Im going to talk to you tonight...

Im sure that it was awkward for you to call there,
but you made my day...
I do have one complaint though.
I was trying to make it through
the day having sighed less than 5 times...
Right before you called I was on 3,
and thought I might make it...
needless to say...
I did not.

your such a wonder faith.