gangsters need love too

a day has passed.
but you know what?
I have absolutely nothing to write about...

Im joking of course...
I did worry abit one day that
over the course of 3 months I would
run out of things to write about...
(outside of the obligitory "I miss you"s)
abit irrational maybe...considering I havent
stopped talking since I started 23 years ago.

I have no idea whats going
on with my fathers project
I received an e-mail from them
yesterday saying they had returned
from the Ukraine...and that everything
was great.

Im not sure what that means.

There is this man thats been coming into the
store...old, very tall, distinguished.
He came in one day last week...
and fairly randomly informed my co-workers
that one needed a license for
everything these days "except spears"

I dont know what he meant by this...
but it seemed fairly obvious to Kenn
that Tony (his name) was actually
a retired gangster called "Tony the Spear"

We spent a great deal of time talking today,
and it turns out that Kenn was wrong...

it seems to me that as extraordinary people
progress through life, tiny bits of their adventures
stick to them...on some the layer becomes so thick
you can see it...

Ill talk about Tony more later...
the point is that Ive decided to become his friend
he has too much information Id like to know.

.....

the most important thing that happened today
was that I finally heard from Nivine.

Thank G-d.

I worry about her...I think I always will.
That night is the thing I hold onto when I am truly doubting G-d.
He has never shouted at me so loudly.
I feel this incredible responsibility for her well-being...
I cant really explain it...

I always worry that she will have forgotten me.
but apparently she misses me, and thinks about me often.
I love the idea of being able to visit her years from now when
shes married with 12 kids (shes catholic).
I pray to G-d that I will get to.

thats about it for tonight
I have the day off tomorrow--
which is good-ish.
I didnt know I didnt have to work
so I dont have anything planned...
I should write you something...
(read: a story of some kind)
Im sorry Im such a coward...
its one of several things I intend to change.
(also, I am much too witty)

I still thought alot about you today...
but it was different somehow...
easier, better.
thanks babe.

song of the night is clearly
"worlds apart" by Mathew Jay