sigh along

its national something something day
which means I didnt have to...anything...today

Im reading this book, this Gurdieff book...
I like it, he writes alot like Garcia-Marquez,
except his stories are supposed to be true...

I wrote replies to both your brother and
your parents today...
I hope they know that nervousness
makes people say stupid things...

Lots of people want to know if we're engaged now...
and I have to tell them, that no, we are not...
and that (sigh) it will probably not happen
for a long time...
its like they think its not normal to skip across
an ocean for a girl you're just casually dating ;)

we had to tell my mother today that Cheryl Sauer had died...
Im not sure if you remember me talking about her
several months back...
she was young, and had cancer...
a little less than a year ago my mother had tried to hire
her at the store...
several days later she received the news that
she was no longer in remission...
mom had talked to her last week...
and had meant to go and visit her...
we didnt tell her while she was gone...
I guess we thought it best...
today though, when she was sorting through the papers
we all remembered that her obituary was there...
we had saved it for her...
it showed cheryl with the long curly hair she'd had
before the radiation treatment...
and talked about how she had held on so long...
not for herself, but for the people she loved...
so I told her...and she broke down and cried...

what a horrible thing
to feel powerless
to help those that you love...

I feel the same thing with you sometimes...
when I hear that you;ve been crying in
front of strangers.

but I guess I can try...

Faith, we are in love!
and together I know
that we have a chance at a
life that most people could
only dream about...
(I dont just mean the adventures...
but I do think we should have a sailboat)
I am yours babe...
and you are everything Ive ever hoped for.

and if thats not worth smiling about...
know that I will buy you any kind
of ice-cream you want when you get home.

do you think that shar'ee (sp?)
would let me call her cell-phone?
I seem to recall that it wouldnt cost her
anything...I know its hard for you to ask such things...
but would I ever love to hear your voice.

j