you set me free

well,
my plan was to
come home today and
write out a short account
of everything that happened
this weekend...
it was story worthy,
even by lofty reckoning...

but instead I was pulled out
for late night shisha with friends
(I like Israelis)
and then
later night chinese with 2
charming gentleman to have
a conservation about the matter
of life and death...

Jeremy is writing is story about
a boy about his age and his height...
realizing suddenly that crossing the Darien
Gap was the answer to his nights of sleeplessness...
in the jungle he would find truth...
or he would die...and hopefully...find truth

its a good premise I think...
except that it sounded tonight like he means
to do so...
it took me much to long to realize that when
he speaks of "going into the jungle"
what he means is "commit suicide"

I will save him.
Hopefully I can do it from here.

I will write more tomorrow...
probably before you've read this...
but just in case.

I love you faith
I feel like this isnt my real life at all...
that I should be back in Berlin with you.
It makes me sad to think of how long it
will be until we could live together...
maybe we should get apartments right next to
one another, and just take turns having sleepovers?



Im sorry that I make you teary sometimes...
Ill make it up to you...
we took alot of photos in banff that are bound
to make you miss me less...
some of them will be posted within 48hrs.

Im so very tired...
I wish I was with you...
Id settle for just 10 minutes...
just to help me get to sleep...

I miss you so much.