and perhaps to dream

faith

Im back in calgary now...
my flight was fine...abit long...
I sat between a german farmer
and an austrian whose girlfriend lived in
Vancouver...
and had some excellent talks with both.
(I know all about German farming now :)

when I got back plans had already been
made, we had a party to go to and then were
going to head out to banff...
I asked if it would be alright if I took a short nap...
and when that turned into hours...
they were kind enough not to wake me...

I miss you faith.
It was terrible waking up this morning
without you
....
....
....
I too feel like apart of me missing...
if I was feeling abit braver id say it was almost like
we were meant to be together.

"are you afraid to be the man she deserves?"
says jeffrey?

the only thing that I regret about our last night
together is that I didnt get to make you spagetti
(which I certainly owe you)
progress can be painful I think...
you just tore down a few more of my defences is all.
(there arent alot left)

what I want you to remember about that night
is that what I was really upset about
(I cried too much maybe...but you'll know it was sincere)
was that at the end of our lives together
I might have to say Good-Bye to you... for good...
and thats something thats between G-d and I...

yes, I am assuming all kinds of things
that you love me as much as I love you...
that we'll travel the world together...
and that Im going to marry you...
and Im perfectly happy to do so

but you should know
that while you were worried about my
doubting yesterday, I was talking to
a german man about where we should be living
when our child is born.
(it would give them dual citizenship in many countries
which I think would be very useful.)

I hope you day is grand babe.
I miss Berlin too...
and am abit jealous that you have 2 more weeks there :)
I should have left you some euros so you could bring
me back a sandwich from my usual sandwich place.
Im going to be craving one today...
and theres not a damn thing Ill be able to do about it.

Also, tell Shar'ee (sp?) that Im terribly
sorry that I didnt get to say good-bye to her...
that I appreciated her answering my questions
and that her pistachios were wonderful.

I love you faith.