back again...

are we required to let the other know
when we've been drinking abit?
I dont think we should be...
the other person is bound to notice...

Kenn is off to New York for some big
theatre thingy...tonight was his going away party.
Jae loves tequila...
if you ever wanted to take advantage of me
all you would have to do is purchase a bottle of
Cabo Wabo Resposado and do that bitey lip thing.

At 11 o'clock things had become abit odd...
I excused myself and called my sisters to take me home.
I pride myself on being to relate to all kinds of people...
but tonight, I just didnt feel like it.
I just wanted to be with you.
or to talk with you or about you.
I like some of these people...I really do.
I could even say that I "love them to pieces"
but some of their friends, and their friends friends friends
I could do without.

mental note...drinking makes me miss you more.

I hope you were smiling before you read this,
and still are after your finished...
You worry too much babe...
let me do some of it for you.

I love this song...
for me, its part of our future
soundtrack. You'll hear me
humming it when you get back...
Im sure of it.

sigh...
I have some interesting friends...
When Kurt gets exciting he starts
to speak mostly in Spanish...
which I can only partially understand.
He has interesting ideas about love...
which I find interesting...but dont share.

Today was a busy day for alot of reasons.
There is a couple form Idaho that has done
several trips through the Gap and had published
a guide book on how to get through. They stopped
publishing it in 2004...and dont seem to want to talk to me...
Im trying to get enough people together for them to
reprint it...so far...so good.

hmm...maybe you dont want to hear about such things.
Im sorry. I dont know what to do.
But if I am going to do such foolishness.
I should do them before decide that you want
to keep me.

maybe we should pretend that Im not going to go...
and that your not gone. maybe...just for awhile
ill pretend that I get to see you tomorrow.

When is school done there Faith?
What countries are you seeing?
When are you in Berlin?
When are you going to talk to me next?

I wonder at least once a week about what
its going to be like to have our families in the
same room...I mean...our whole families...
(including Carl)

Im so glad that he's getting married.
Can I assume that I get to be your plus 1?
I promise to clean up...a little...
I also cant wait to meet your brother and
your babies :)

Gah I miss you.

Song of the night will remain
unnamed for the time being.
But its good.
real good.