then we'll be just fine

do you think its going to take
time for us to adjust to being together
when you get back?

I hope so.
sounds like fun.

Im looking forward
to that first time I get
to kiss you again...

So...I love you.
Again there are all these
voices. I want to say it all
the time. To tell you everytime
I talk to you...send you e-mails
in the middle of the day...pay
strangers on the street to
come up to you and tell you

but I also want you to know
what I mean by it...how much it means
to me...how much you mean to me.
Which makes me think I should use it sparringly.

I know its happened quickly faith,
quicker than I imagined possible
--at least for me, I remember a friend
of mine who had something similar
happen to her...how quickly she fell
in love with with someone she'd
known for years...I take back everything
I said about it...it all makes sense to me now.--
but even though you do make me abit silly sometimes
Im not crazy, YOU'RE an argument Ive been having
with my heart for close to 6 years.
Its something that Ive put a tremendous amount
of thought into...and continue to...

Im talking to jeremy,
who tells me that he is used to people
dying. No one should have to say that.
he wants me to go to the Darien this fall...
I have yet to register for school...
Im afraid its making alot of sense to me...
Though Im sure it will pass

mr. fancy pants says:
we should do something rash and irresponsible...
mr. fancy pants says:
like the darien
mr. fancy pants says:
this fall
Jae'than - Your my brand new Story says:
this fall?
Jae'than - Your my brand new Story says:
possible
mr. fancy pants says:
sure
Jae'than - Your my brand new Story says:
no, seriously
Jae'than - Your my brand new Story says:
I didnt register for school
mr. fancy pants says:
i am serious
Jae'than - Your my brand new Story says:
so am I
mr. fancy pants says:
right
Jae'than - Your my brand new Story says:
actually
Jae'than - Your my brand new Story says:
no
Jae'than - Your my brand new Story says:
really
mr. fancy pants says:
we're going to talk ourselves into it
mr. fancy pants says:
i'm in
Jae'than - Your my brand new Story says:
it would give me a reason not to have to go to school
mr. fancy pants says:
cra[
mr. fancy pants says:
crap
mr. fancy pants says:
i did it already
Jae'than - Your my brand new Story says:
what
mr. fancy pants says:
talk myself into it
mr. fancy pants says:
i mean
mr. fancy pants says:
well,
mr. fancy pants says:
there's no real danger in this world
mr. fancy pants says:
unless your jogging on a golf course in canmore
mr. fancy pants says:
or driving from winkler to the winnipeg airport
mr. fancy pants says:
or hiking to an easy iceclimb

he is referring, of course, to the 3
friends of his that have died this year.

sigh

what I forgot to mention tonight is that
my next family re-union is in belize...
this next summer.
You would certainly be invited if you can
put up with me for that long.
I have a pretty cool family.
Damnit.
Damnit.
Which means that I might not get to go
someplace else this >


ah...I cant remember what I was saying.

Kat talked some sense into me
but I understand where jeremy is coming from...
we have lots of friends doing silly things that have lived...
and many people that are not...and are dead.

We'll send out some e-mails
and see just how stupid it is.
Maybe the AUC will have disarmed.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." - Mark Twain

Id so much rather go to africa with you.




have the best day faith.
I hope I get to talk to you soon.

song of the night is Faith by Nizlopi

and I do love you faith.
oh! I love saying it.