hi, my name is Jae...I have a wonderful girlfriend.

well...Im home now.
let us never speak of it again.

there were some interesting people there,
interspersed among the crowd was this loose assocation
of individuals...you could pick them out by their names

mr. fahrenheit
mr. giggles
sugar mountain
etc.

I have...apparently been excepted into this group--
though Im not happy with any of the nick-names
they came up with.

Do you know me well enough to believe that
I would have rather been home tonight?

Again, I ran into peeps that I know...
its interesting to see how people have evolved--
anyway, I won't bother with the details--
but I will say that tonight just made me more sure of you
I have these "attacks" of missing, where I have to stop playing
bass in the airband...and just stare at the wall for awhile.

I was going to try and go up to Saskatoon tomorrow
(Bj is there, and Id love to see him again)
but I dont think I will--
Im going to sleep, and hopefully--
wake up for church

One of the things that I pride myself on is
the ability to fit in with a variety of peoples...
I tell myself Im pretty good at it--
for the most part, I think I am
but, I had a man I havent seen in many years
walk up to me in a busy room, and ask
me what it was like to be the one person that didnt belong.
I wasnt insulted...just abit taken aback--
Im not quite sure what he meant.

I did meet at least one gentleman tonight that I
hope to become friends with...
I feel he will become an integral part of the grifters.

let me tell you whats unfair...knowing whats it like to have
you gone will make it almost impossible to leave you.
(oh...but I will. South America here I come!)

I received an e-mail from Sara tonight (Shtefans novia)
she has been diagnosed with MS. Please pray for her.

I just can't leave this nature of love thing alone...
maybe its because Im looking for it--
but the last 2 days have brought some dramatically different
philosophies concerning....it.
With abit of editing it would have made a fine film...
well--a film.

Im going to try and write abit tomorrow--
maybe Ill stop saying that.

alright...I should let me body rest...and my mind race
after I do the stupid song thing