but the greatest of these.

I bought your birthday present today.
(you probably won't like it;)
I want to tell you what it is...
but I love suprises!
(well...suprising other people)

are you in Paris babe?
Is it as lovely as it is in my mind?
Did you spend the day looking
at beautiful things?
i hope so.

today was the day that I finally went
over to Nadines for supper...
(eggplant...not real good)
I was a little worried,
it had been about 8 years since Id seen her.
But, it was good.
Strange only because her and her husband
are abit odd. (a little new-agey...but interesting)
I really liked him. His english was only slightly
better than my spanish...which meant that we
ended up speaking this sortof awkward combination of.
I adore their son though, Kai...and strangely
he adored me as well...constantly giving me these huge hugs...
crying when they tried to take him away.

I cant see myself going very often...
though it was nice to see that she ended
up with such a pleasant fellow.

it just made me miss you more...

faith,
I know that it will be a long time...
that we have some work to do...
on us...on ourselves...
(not so much...we good)
that it will be years from now
(you know...maybe 6...or 11...)
but I can't wait for that to be us
our apartment will be nicer mind you...
our child cuter...
(and able to speak english, spanish AND german)
but tonight I could not help but think how lovely
it will be.

thats right...I said "will be"...
I think that one of the things that went
wrong this last week is that I stopped assuming that
things would work out. All of the things we said are true...
we don't know...but until I have reason to think otherwise...
I don't think I will.

I know that alot of time and experience will pass before that...
(I swear I wont marry you until we've seen 4 continents together)*
but Im looking forward to that too...
tonight...Im looking forward to it all.

gah.

I have some friends from Calgary that have shown up
randomly tonight...its nice to be missed....
so...I guess I should go...

really, I just know, looking back this will all seem too short.

have the best paris day faith.
handsome luc says you should check out the catacombs...
I love you.

yip...you wont like your present at all.

*I didnt really think about this before I wrote it.
But Ive decided thats its true...in fact...Im going
to go get a bible and swear on it...in front of witnesses.